Its already November. Dam. Where the hell has the beginning of senior year gone? I haven't even applied for any colleges yet. All of a sudden I can feel a big scary thing called "LIFE" breathing down my back.
I get distracted easily. I love to drown my self in things that I consider fun and push everything away. But eventually reality comes along and sticks a needle in my bubble and as it bursts, everything comes rushing back. Ugh. Sometimes I really hate myself for that.
Not only that, I feel I've spread myself quite thin this year. School, band, cym, confirmation, drama, vcat, family, friends. I love all of em, but its so hard to keep balance. Especially when I get distracted an push all of them away. Now college.
And something else that's been bugging me. For about 17 and a half years. About my single status. I feel like I want it to change. Yet at the same time I don't wanna be desperate. I keep seeing couples hooking up everywhere I go. I feel so...left out and alone. Ugh. I know this shouldn't be one of my priorities, but at the same time I want to so bad.
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Don't trip dude. You've already got more than enough on your plate. Love will come looking for you when the time is right.
ReplyDeleteI'm totally in the same boat, I just recently started applying for college and they're pretty much all due at the end of this month!!! Crazy how time flies by. & love will come when you least expect it =) So just continue to do what you do & everything else will fall into place =)
ReplyDeletethanks you two =) i'll just be doing what i normally do and see what happens ^^
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